My Once Upon a Time...

Being a mom is hard. If you are a mom, I’m sure you already know that.  I have been really struggling lately and most days I go to bed feeling like a failure. Thinking I could’ve done better, could’ve done more, could’ve had more patience. I’ll always tell myself that tomorrow, I will do better.  Tomorrow, I will be the best mom that I can be, the best wife, the best daughter, the best friend, the best employee. But then tomorrow comes, and somewhere between lunch and dinner, I will drop a ball. Or two. Sometimes even all of them. And then I beat myself up for not being able to handle it all. Or not handle it the way I would’ve liked to. Mom Guilt at its finest.  I thought everyone feels like this every once in a while, so I talked to Katie about my feelings and asked her if she ever felt like a bad mom and she said no, she never feels like that.  Most days I feel like I have too much on my plate. I start work at 5am, hoping Fox will sleep until at lea...

Today, I'm feeling like a failure. In fact, I've been feeling like this for many weeks now.  Motherhood is hard and I feel like I'm doing it all wrong. The last couple of weeks have left me exhausted and drained, both physically and emotionally.  We've all been sick and I've been trying to survive on short stretches of sleep. Taking care of a baby, WHILE WORKING in the office, while being sick, is no joke. It's becoming all a little overwhelming for me. We're getting a full time nanny in one month, so I know there's light at the end of that tunnel, but my heart hurts all at the same time, thinking about being away from my boy every day, all day.  I guess it all started out when Fox started to teeth, back in November. He got six teeth since then, one after the other. I don't think I got more than a two hour stretch of uninterrupted sleep since. And since he's up basically every hour all night long, I figured the easiest thing to do is to h...